Again... it's been a while since I last updated. Sorry to all of my friends who I neglect on here... :( I really use Facebook a lot more now. My username is the same there as it is here, so go ahead and check me there, I'll add you if you add me.

Let's see.. what's been up.
Well... not too much... didn't get to go and see Miyavi, which sucks :( I'm hoping he reschedules soon. What would be perfect would be Las Vegas in Feb, since my mom and I are going for a week (hopefully) She retires the end of this month, and has wanted to take a nice trip for a long time after she retires.

As for me, well, getting very very restless. What's new right? I'm planning to get done my current job next fall and move somewhere. Dunno where yet. Possibilities are Ithaca, Las Vegas, California, Albany, Burlington, North Carolina. So we'll see, I need to try to pay down some of my debt first right now. *sigh* damn credit cards.

I've had my ups and downs, as usual as well. Honestly, sometimes I wonder if I'm a touch bi-polar, or if I really have PMDD or what. Cause sometimes, I'm great, ambitious, and right with the world. Othertimes, christ, feels like if it wasn't such a selfish act I'd slit my wrists -_-. Maybe I'm bi-polar *and* have PMDD lol. Who knows. At the moment things are somewhat okay though. Right now I'm keeping busy with planning my cookies for friends, and painting at ceramics.

I actually really like doing the ceramics thing, and could see myself selling things like that one day. It'd be easier to sell that than bakery items, a dream that's really starting to fade the more I get frustrated with it.

I got my ticket to MYV in NYC! YAAAAAAAY!!!!

Hotel's all booked, now I just gotta buy the bus tickets, but those aren't going to sell out anytime soon...

I'm SO RELIEVED to have gotten this ticket! now I can get properly excited for this!!!!!

august 24th....
how in the hell did that happen?
seriously, this year... is flying by.... how did it get to be the end of august?

let's see... this year's been... busy..
In january I took the trip of a lifetime to Japan that I won't ever forget.
we moved in February into this hell hole of a house that we're trying to fix up, so that made february incredibly busy.
In march... hm...can't remember March very much lol
April I had a small vacation from work, went down to Providence, RI I think
May brought a family party and then going down to Providence again to help my aunt and her daughter move
In June I went with Ernie to see Transformers down in the Imax in Albany which was amazing :0) It was also the start of school vacation, boo!... so the kids were home all the time with me -_- also bought a new car the end of June. Had to say goodbye to Jack, my first ever car who i loved completely..... but, I'm getting used to the new one. It's a 2006 Chevy Cobalt
In July there was the 4th, my brother's birthday...busy with work...
August has brought a busy schedule along with it as well. we went back down to RI again, and then drove up to maine, then back down to NH to visit family, then drove back home. Put 1300 miles on my car round trip

How has this year gone by so quickly. Feels like I haven't accomplished much, except for going to Japan
In september, I've been at my job a year... and I'd originally told myself that I didn't want to stay at that job for more than a year... but... it really is good money... the workload has it's moments of insanity, but most of the time, I'm being paid good money for a relatively low stress amount of work... and with the way the economy is now, where people with doctorates unable to find work, it's safer at the moment to just stay where I am.

My mountain of debt has grown to crippling...so I guess I might as well stay right here until I can try to pay off some of it
I have my moments of being down occasionally..... the PMDD still rears it's ugly head now and then to get me good and depressed... I'm fatter than ever, but really.... most of the time don't care.
I occasionally feel a bit lonely and want a relationship, but those moments pass very quickly... lol

wow...really took me forever to really get a chance to post hm? -_-

anyway, I'd previously promised a post about going to osaka with Jen !

Alrighty.... Osaka? quite possibly one of the best days of the entire trip! We took the train, my first real train of traveling a ways away from Nagoya. Osaka was very easy to understand and get around. We went to see Osaka castle, which was amazing. It was fantastic to see this ancient castle sight that's now surrounded by skyscrapers and busy city. One of the funniest things in Osaka? Me trying Takoyaki for the first time.
OMFG disgusting lol
It didn't even stay in my mouth for more than a few chews and out I spit it. Jen took a video of it for Facebook, which is hilarious lol. So incredibly gross. Texture... taste... smell.. BLEH lol. Definitely not a favorite food for sure. Then we headed towards the water and harbor area and went on this HUGE ferris wheel. Keep in mind... I'm really scared of ferris wheels LOL I'm always afraid the seat will tip over. It was the Tenpozan Ferris wheel, it's 112.5 meters high lol. It had an AMAZING view though!!! We were up there just as the sun was starting to set so it was gorgeous! Before we got on they had one of those usual touristy spots that had a photo op you can buy afterwards. We had to buy it because it was so cheezy!!! It was a valentine's day setup, with all these hearts and crap... and then here's me and Jen lol. We couldn't resist buying it. After we got off the ferris wheel we went through this shopping mall area that was right next to the ferris wheel. First thing we saw was a ninja outside a store handing out flyers, and to the other side was a petting zoo inside lol. It had goats and stuff..... .very weird. very japan. lol

Inside the shopping mall we shopped a bit.... saw fifty million Hello Kitty stores lol. HAD A KIWI CREPE! amazingly delicious. Conveniently enough, right next door was the Osaka aquarium, so in we went! It was so cool! They had these huge sharks in this main, central cylinder type tank. You went down in a general spiral to different levels. They had one section with those huge spider like crabs that looked like the monsters from War of the Worlds. I really liked the aquarium! After that we went to the section of Osaka with all the shopping arcades and stuff. It was like a mini Tokyo! Neon lights everywhere, HOT guys everywhere! We went to this out of the way place where you went up several floors and sat by a window and had Okonomiyaki which was AMAZINGLY good as well. Plus we had an ultra cute waiter who waited on us! Japanese bishies in aprons and headkerchiefs FTW! After that we just walked around, I got to play that drum game (that I've seen Gackt play before, woo!). That was tons of fun! Sadly, we had to leave Osaka for the last train because we'd already paid for our return tickets when we'd bought them in the morning. I wish we could've stayed there overnight! We didn't want to leave!

So we got home, exhausted, but very happy! Osaka was fantastically wonderful! Definitely want to go there again if I can get my ass to Japan again!


So there's one more day for you guys to hear about from Japan. sorry it's taking me so long!!! Life gets in the way so much -_- lol

It's been a very long time hasn't it?
Things have still been pretty crazy busy around here.... still trying to clean up and such.

I do have one fantastic thing though..... I GOT A NETBOOK TODAY! It's blue...and wonderful and little and shiny! I named it Maya, cause I've used up all my other Jrocker's names on other things lol. I'm still getting used to typing on this teeeny tiiiny keyboard lol. I used my big credit cards reward points to get it, so except for paying for the warranty, it was free!

Anyway, my own computer is still a paperweight for right now, but hopefully Ernie can fix it! For now, I'm happily on my netbook :0) I lurve it!

I'll post more later, just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still alive LOL

Not dead.

Once things settle down I'll be able to post more about Japan..
right now..I'm stuck in moving hell

we're trying to clean up the house my bro was in so we can move in...by this weekend....*twitch*
four children, six cats, and a dog lived in this house.... that should tell you the state it's in...
plus ripping up all the carpets, painting every single wall with primer and then white paint, and also moving things...

back home! safe and sound :0) and broke now, but it was all sooooo worth it! I still have the same bills as before I went, but now I have once in a lifetime memories that make it completely worth it!


now I have to start scheming to get to Houston, TX to see Miyavi in April *cackle*

posts about Japan will be coming soon when inspiration hits, for now, I'M SAFE AND SOUND and incredibly happy! :0)

OMFG!




SAW GACKT TONIGHT


CAN'T TALK



DEAD NOW.

OMFG....having SOOOOOOOO much fun!!!! Sunday, Jen and I went to Inuyama and had a totally cracktastic time. That place was great! The castle was totally beautiful. Despite the staircases that were about a foot and a half high each step and narrow as well. We went all the way to the top and walked around the ledge type thing. FANTASTIC view! Then we went to a couple little museums, and headed towards a place called the Momotaru Shrine. This place was just.... omg..total crack. There were demons and animals and like..a little kid's park with swings and beaten up old toys lol. There was even a statue of a demon that was crying. And of course, momotaru, a little naked guy bursting out of a peach.
Exactly.
Then we started walking back to the castle (we'd cheated and taken a taxi to the shrine lol) on the winding, narrow road. We stopped a gorgeous waterfall, even found a restroom with a clean western style toilet, WITH toilet paper lol. Then we decided to go to a shrine that was up this hilly road. So up we go... after the hilly road, was some stairs. okkay, easy enough. Then there was another set... and then..another lol. and then? The biggest set of freaking stairs I've ever seen in my life! the sign said there was 300 stairs. We'd already gone up about 50-100. So up we go, SLOWLY lol. We finally got up to the top close to sunset and it was AMAZING. We could see soooo far, teh mountains in the far distance were gorgeous. Then we figured we'd better head back because it was about a 4.5km walk back to Inuyama. We got back there, wandered around the traditional looking streets for a while, then headed back to Nagoya on the train. Once we got back we went to a restaurant called Yamachan and had delicious pepper wings, cheese sticks, some sort of chahan and beer. Went to bed around....3 I think? Woke up around 6:45 the next morning (sleep's been an issue lol) I was up and awake and the like until about noon. I got bored waiting for Jen to wake up and ended up getting sleepy and went back to sleep. When I woke back up when she got up, I felt awful, I had some sort of spasm going on in my neck and could barely move it, and same with my back. My stomach's been iffy since I got here as well, so that was acting up, and I was just generally blah and disappointed at a lost day. I ended up going back to sleep and didn't wake up again until 7pm :( Jen got done work and we went to meet up with a friend of hers to eat around 10:30. It was really good actually. I got gyoza and kimchi chahan(fried rice sort of thing) which was delicious! After eating a bit I did feel a bit better though. I tried to go to bed around 2ish...but I was still awake even at 5:15am -_- I must've finally fallen asleep, but woke up again around 7 am. *sigh* lol I'll update more later about my day on Tuesday, Osaka! It was wonderful, but this post will be epic if I don't stop typing.

Woohoo! I'm in the land of my Jrockers! I landed and went through customs and stuff without incident. The flights were okay, the last one was just loooooong. I've never been fed so much in my life -_-  Two full means and a snack. Doesn't sound like much, but when you're on this plane, queasy to your stomach and sipping gingerale so you don't puke it's like 'omg wtf we're eating AGAIN???' lol Food was pretty good though. Tried to eat it cause I was hungry, but at the same time, my stomach was acting up. Most likely anxiety and crap in general. Hard to relax until you're actually *at* where you're going to stay. Jen was waiting for me, and I called mah mommy and got some money out and we headed back to her place. It's small and cold, but high up with a great view. I met her roomie and his girlfriend and they're lots of fun already. Today we're going to Inyuyama I think... right now I'm just curled up under blankets in her room. It's about 7:30am here Sunday. I think I'd slept about six total hours since I woke up Thursday morning...but last night I was just way too keyed up to go to bed at all. I went to bed around 1:30am or so and woke up around 7am. I'm not tired though, mostly cause my body thinks it's 5:30pm lol. Jen has gotten me SO MANY MAGAZINES over the last several months. And Gackt merchandise! I'm so excited!!!!! We fangirled for a while before she made me go to bed LOL Anyway, that's your update so far, much squeeeing is had LOL

EEEEEEEEEEEEE! I'm in Detroit! On my way to Japan! Well, in about five more hours LOL and then 13 1/2 hours after THAT I'm *in* Japan LOL.

A week from today I see GACKT! I may just die LOL of happiness of course!


side note? really really impressed with Detroit Airport, I could live here LOL

I'm being unusual tonight....

It's 11:25pm..and I'm just lounging in bed listening to music on my headphones... 's been a while. I don't usually get a chance to just... listen to music anymore lately -_-

So I'm listening to the Cloverfield party mix... it's from the movie Cloverfield which, while not all that amazing, has this playlist that was playing during the party before the monster starts up... and...I have to confess, the only reason I downloaded the playlist was cause MUCC has a song..which I LOVE..but actually..the whole playlist is pretty good!

We did some family christmasy stuff today..so...

I'm tired and have a headache..but...I'll just lay here for a while and listen to musica.


here's a link to the playlist if you're curious. if you like it, let me know! http://www.hypeful.com/2008/01/21/robs-party-mix-from-cloverfield/

I'm really starting to get a bit sick of the christmas season.... lol

I think it's the procrastinator in me.... there's still things I haven't done..people I haven't sent christmas cards to.... presents that need to be bought.... and I'm procrastinating all of that... during the day... I'll think to myself 'I'll do that as soon as I get home' but by the time I get home... I'm just totally wrecked and want to do nothing but plop onto the couch.

Being lazy is a cycle afterall... you're tired and have no energy from being so lazy.... which makes you more lazy, which just keeps making you tired...  I know that if you exercise and move around and stuff, you'll have more energy..
but where do you get the energy to *start* doing that. -_-


I've noticed lately... that things that were so important to me before... that were some of the sources of my discontent with my life the way it was... don't seem so important now... I'm not miserable being stuck here... though I'm just as firmly stuck here as I was before... but now I'm not miserable with it. I guess that's just another example of how much that job was sucking the life out of me.

Maybe I'm starting to get a little bored with the job I'm at now though? I dunno... I can say the enthusiasm for it..has definitely dimmed a bit... but I know it's a good paying job for what I'm doing, so I just need to stay with it and try to pay off my enormous debt bills. After Japan, of course lol

Today I'm just feeling a bit off.... too tired. too fat. too queasy. too lazy. bleh.


any why can I never get in the mood to do tags? everyone's doing it. why don't I want to?

You've missed me haven't you.
I knew it.
^___^


Well, let's see what's going on. I'm still working as a housekeeper/babysitter and I still like it. It's amazing how much better I feel when I don't dread every single waking moment I'm at work. I've barely had any migraines or stomach problems from stress. I'm muuuuccchhh less stressful. I haven't been sick in forever, though I think I'm getting a cold now because of the four germ buckets I call nieces being over here at Thanksgiving lol.

Money's been a little tight, but just because of poor spending practices, so I can't say much lol.
and oh yea


I'M GOING TO JAPAN TO SEE GACKT PERFORM IN JANUARY!


EEEEE!

I've got my ticket to see the show already. I just paid for my ticket to fly to and from Japan a couple days ago. Now I just need to save up some spending money. I'm going from January 23-February 2. My birthday is the 31st of January and the concert is the day before, on the 30th. I get Gackt for my birthday! BEST. BIRTHDAY. EVER.

Even better, I get to see Jen! Yay!!!! ^______^

So that's my thing I'm looking forward to at the moment.
Looks like there's going to be some changes around here as well though. I think we'll be moving (again -_- ) in March. Back to the house we had on Academy St. that we left to move to St. Regis Falls. The people who were supposed to buy the house in the Falls (a YEAR ago ) still... STILL..have not come up with the money. We've been more than lenient with them and they've done nothing but take advantage of that. So we're getting them out. They have until March 1st to move, and my brother and his family are going to move from the house on Academy St. (that they've been renting from my mother for five years) into the house in St. Regis Falls, to rent to own that. My mother and I will move back into Academy St. and do MAJOR renovations and cleaning up to get it sellable by the next year or so.

So we all have something to focus on. I'm actually really excited to fix up that house on Academy St.. My mom and I have sooo many ideas we want to try out. I know that'll be expensive..but right now the house looks like shit after my brother and his four wild children have lived there. They've drawn on things, wrecked the moldings, he's got crap piled in the backyard like a stupid junkyard. The flower gardens are neglected, and things are just... going downhill. So we want to get it back up to speed.  My mom's sort of considering it like the house in the Falls... she's selling to him for about 20k less than she was asking before..so that's like his inheritance..and this house in Malone will be my inheritance. So that's my motivation to *really* get this thing nice so I can hopefully sell it for like 50-60k.

So right now I'm trying to save save save money for traveling and then renovations.
And of course trying to lose weight. That's just going wonderfully ....except not. -_-

Anyway! I hope everyone else is doing okay... I really neglect my LJ friend's list a lot..so I have mostly no idea what's going on with people. 

Who would like Christmas cards and cookies this year?! Comment to let me know you do, and then I'll contact you to get your info and stuff. Anyway, gotta jet now, hafta go and get ready for work.

Bye!

I
AM
GOING
TO
SEE
GACKT!


In January! Tickets have been procured! woo freakin HOO!

now I just gotta start saving up the money to get the planet ticket and have spending money and stuff lol


and lose major weight -_-

but!


I'M GOING TO SEE GACKT! LIVE!

alright... I KNOW I have friends on here that are good with LJ layouts and stuff like that. I...SUCK at it..so very much lol...

so I have a proposition...


will one of you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! design me a layout? I'm sick of my journal looking so pitiful.....

I'm sure anyone wondering what sort of theme I would like... knows what my main interest is by now lol...


JROCK!

so please please design me one with some aspects (either one main, or a couple combined) seen below:

Gackt
Miyavi
L'arc~en~ciel
Hyde
The color blue (mah favorite)
POKIE DOTS!!! (mah other favorite)

if a mood theme could be in there too that would be great, something happened with my old one and it doesn't work anymore -_-

now, you may be wondering, what is the reward for said theme?


what else, but

FOOOD!

I shall cook you whatever cookies/breads/shippable baked goods you desire ^_^ and if you know me, you *know* what I'm capable of cooking!

so please help? pplleeassee!

Alright well, let's see what's been going on...

I got done with the abstracting job August 29th. WOO! Nothing like finally saying goodbye to a job that has made your life an emotional hell for the last 2 1/2 years. I moved back in with my mom here in Malone. It's been going okay, we get along just fine. I'm LOVING the chance to have quality time with mah doggy every day.  I've been looking for work, but not really all that hard. Enough is enough though. I had my two weeks of being able to relax, and now I'm going back to work!

I just got a job housekeeping/babysitting from 10-6pm monday through friday and I'm really excited about it. It's for a doctor couple in Malone, and they have three children. Ages 5, 7, and 10. Two boys (5 and 10) and one girl (7).  I'll be taking home more at this job than I did as an abstractor, so that's a big relief, moneywise. I start tomorrow, so I'm really happy to have money coming in again.

Let's see, what else... generally things are quiet. We're going down to Providence, RI in a couple of weeks for a long weekend to visit family. I'm excited because we're going to be visiting the Mystic Connecticut Aquarium. They have Beluga whales! I'm so happy! ^_^ I'm really excited for that.

Anyway...that's what's been going on recently...

P.S. Happy Birthday to Miyavi!

I feel like i'm at the point where I want to change my entire life...

I want to change my exercise and eating habits...lose weight and be more fit...

I want to just.....change everything...

I wanted change....I'm getting change...


I officially gave my notice at my job last week. My last day is August 29th. I'm done whether I have a new job or not.


right now ..my stomach is in flips because tomorrow at 4pm? I have an interview for a job in Burlington with Chittenden Bank!

I hope I get it, but at the same time...I'll be relieved if I don't, because I had just decided to make the move back to Malone, and then two days later I get a call for the interview in Burlington LOL... they're 2 hours away from each other each way....


please wish me luck though..... I need this job... it'll be good human resources experience

I suppose I should do an update yea?
Well....this morning was just... one of those mornings where I cannot make myself get up and ambitious for work... so I called in sick. I usually can resist that urge 9 times out of 10..but this was the 10th time I guess.
Oh well. Maybe it would be easier to get to work if I didn't, you know, loathe it.

Anyway, updates

I'll eventually get around to putting up some sort of report of my Paris trip or pictures or something, but for now... I am TEH LAZY. I'll admit it.

I have fallen into this pit of.... laziness, self pity, and misery..... I go to work, then come home and sit. Eat. Rp. Sleep, then repeat.

I have no hobbies or interests outside my apartment, no socialization except for the occasional trip to my mother's on the weekend or spending time with Ernie, which does really help.

I hate being so far in debt..feels like I'll never get out.


I do want to try for new things though....

I'm starting to sort of get some planning in the works for having a catering/personal chef business. I've wanted to make things and sell them to local restaurants or coffee shops for a while now, but hit a roadblock when I found out I can't use a personal kitchen to make things that will be sold to the public.

I'm going to try contacting local churches or adult centers and see if maybe I can rent time at their kitchens to make stuff to sell.

Right now I'm just in the planning stage.
I'm also in the restless stage...I'd really like to move somewhere else...I don't know where though.... *sigh*

So today I'm just sort of relaxing, caught up on some sleep, and now i"m doing some chores I've put off for a while.